$2,761.52 is what I have made in my business since January 2024.
Compared to last year where I made $13,860.96 in the first quarter.
I just stopped going all in.
I hid from you and myself.
And just now I am realizing how human that is instead of it being wrong.
I stepped over things in my relationship and allowed myself to shrink into what I thought I needed to be for someone to love me (which keeps sounding more ridiculous each time I say it or write it).
But the reflection of what was going on with me and my finances is so apparent now.
I gave into limiting beliefs and did what I thought was needed to fit in.
And these are just the unworkable things that took place in my life.
Like I know full well I won’t make a business grow financially by doing that – and that my personal and professional life are NOT seperate in the slightest.
Being inauthentic in one area bleeds into all the others areas.
For many weeks I have been saying how disgusting it is but really it’s not.
I love myself and I continue to grow when things show up that don’t and won’t work for my life and the big plans God has for me.
The visions He gave me are drawing closer and nothing I could do can f*ck that up.
As long as I am living my life in integrity with the human laws and the laws of God, I know all is well in my world.
Being authentic with myself and others is one of those laws.
God doesn’t want us to pretend we’re ok with something or shrink down small.
We were made to be fully ourselves and fully expressed and fully in our purpose.
For a while there I thought I had royally disappointed everyone and myself but everything that happens is happening for us.
It just depends on how you look at it…
As an opportunity to grow or another opportunity to play victim?
We always get to choose and it helps to have people around you who are there to have you win, to tell the truth to you, and support you in making your dreams become reality.
The money I was making shifted in the HOW it was coming in but it never stopped.
I took a part time job at a company ONLY because it’s different from any other corporate position known on earth right now…
A company whose business it is in the world to cause transformation, and I love that.
The work works when you work it, we say.
And doing this work has me continuously discover who I am, see the beauty of who I am becoming, and what I am actually capable of, like in real life!
Ever since I stepped over the line of who I was with money in the past and who I then had become, I have never gone back to being that past version of me, not fully.
I’ve made mistakes and I’ve shown up as “being” past versions of myself in small ways that sometimes I haven’t spotted for many months – but even that is beautiful in and of itself.
Embracing my humanity is what true love is.
All along managing to still have my finances working (just not as well as I would’ve like them to)…
But I’ll tell you what, never have I ever had to live paycheck to paycheck since 2019 when the transformation solidified.
And every single month that goes by my savings account grows and expands and new ways of earning money come to me.
And that feels good to say.
The old version of me… oh boy do I love her for showing me the way but man was I sick of her.
Now I am thankful for her because she taught me a lot.
Lessons learned could have never come without the circumstances and experiences and I vowed a long time ago to always triumph over my circumstances so I can live a life that I truly love.
Even my husband was one of the kindest men I knew, dated and married whom I am now divorcing (very amicable).
He treated me like the Queen that I am.
And now that part of my life will fade into the past as I continue to build my future one day at a time.
Always remember that no matter the circumstances, there is a way for you to have POWER through it all.
Not force.
Not control.
Just simply knowing what you want and saying no to everything that is not that.
Stand your ground.
Hold your boundaries.
Love people, love yourself first.
Make money, save money, and just be awesome about everything that comes your way.
All of it is a learning and growing opportunity.
I love you & you’re mine.
Zoey Linnea
